Sed Non Satiata

I don't feel like talking about anything anymore. Sometimes things are good, and sometimes they are not. Such is life. Take care.

A Tear In The Open

So, a majority of my involvements in life are highly uncertain. I'm not into it. I don't know how I even stay sane and handle shit sometimes, but I'll figure it out, like I always do. It's been a really long time that I've actually felt like I miss someone, and right now, I think I kind of do, but there are few things that I need to make sure are right before I let myself go again, if ever.

Adventureland was kind of just depressing. But in reality I think I just take all love-related movies way too seriously now, and it ends up ruining my cinematic experience. I think that's the start of a FML post.

Why do I always end up having these crazy encounters/conversations about drug and alcohol abuse just because I'm straight edge? I will not avoid certain situations, ignore an intoxicated friend in need, or go out of my way to put down your personal choices ever because of what I think about those things. It amazes me that people find it "interesting" that I have no problem in attending a party, or a bar, or whatever when that's basically all that's around. Guess what, it's part of being human, whether I like it or not. Just because I most likely want to slit my throat when I'm around you all, it doesn't mean I will. Or maybe I should?

Oh Tiesto how I appreciate thee, even though you're music alienates me from all of my actual "cool" friends. Sigh.

If I Could

Just when I thought I could count on myself, I'm enfatuated with yet
another illusion. I'm sorry but I have sincerely lost all interest in
proving myself wrong in terms of the nature of human beings and social
interaction. However I have rightfully gained the ability to embrace
withholding any sincere emotion to anyone other than myself and
friends for a long time and I can only imagine it will stay this way
for quite sometime. I'm late for Spanish.

Nightdrive With You(rself)

It's moving scenery and a chance to reflect. I can't look or move anywhere but forward anyhow.

End of an Era

It's hard to believe I won't be stepping foot in an atmosphere such as
this anymore for work. Maybe it's time to move on and this is natures
way of telling me so. It's been a good 5 year run, I guess. I think
I'm over caring about personal expectations of my life. I'm just going
to find another mindless routine to waste away in until I feel like
I've redeveloped the best representation of self.

Lullaby From the West Coast Sleepers

HOLY FUCKING SHIT I'M LOSING MY MIND.

Love Like A Sunset

I'm on a serious soul-search right now. The past few months have been seriously auto-piloted. I hope my friends know how much they mean to me, 'cause I may have forgotten how to show it. I don't know if it's selfish or not, but as much as I want to be around, I want just as much not to be around, unless it somehow benefits my happiness, and I really don't know what the external solution to that is as of late. I know things will not be stale once I embrace graduation, summer, and sort out my new job situation. I do know, that I cannot wait to leave for a month with Pianos.

My sleeve is almost done. That's exciting I guess.

I can't stop listening to the new Phoenix album. It sits with me so well.

I think I forgot how to play guitar. FML

Test

Testing

Finally We Are No One

Hard work does not pay off. That is, when you're in the business of music and the economy is a complete shithole. FML. I HATE dealing with instability, especially when I'm nearing such a crossroad time in my life. I'm a strong person, more often when I have foundation. Don't take those things away please.

Pale Blue Dot

If there is a god in charge of musical geniuses, than I thank him for Benn Jordan. Probably the most diverse and inspirational musician I've ever laid ears on.

Before I Forget

I forgot that this semester requires work. I forgot that I made a promise to a professor and now I need to spend my weekend making something for her. I forgot how rad I can be when I get in DJ Birddude mode and start slammin' out hits. Just wait. I forgot that I actually need to have money to finish my sleeve, but I'm somehow managing it regardless. However, I DIDN'T forget to read www.fmylife.com today, and I am still highly entertained. FUCK YOUR LIFE.

Mascara

Thought of the day:

"I am a bit obsessed, and frequently uncomfortably overwhelmed with making sure I am always nothing short of the greatest representation of myself"

Mensch

Entirely too much building, and not enough operating.

Europe After the Rain

I am two weeks under-rested, but yet I insist on staying up and not submitting to normal routines of sleep. When the day is said and done, I use this time to dwell and collect my thoughts and feelings. It's my "me" time, that will be so quickly stripped from me again in the coming weeks, when I am forced to fixate on my final meaningless studies for a "degree". Work is starting to annoy me, but I'm thankful to even have a job. I am just too tired of functioning like me right now.

Soldiers of Fortune

I need some freelance work. If anyone knows of anyone that needs something designed with the exception of websites and preferably not band-related things, then send them to me. I'd like to receive some sort of commission but I'm really just trying to build a stronger portfolio. Thanks.

My head is overflowing, and I'm trying to stay focused.
I will never admit that I am lonely, because that is a feeling that I'll never associate myself with anymore.
I'm under the impression that good things will appear in time with hard work and living in truth.
I think there are enough positive distractions in my life as of recent that allow me to be so unconcerned.

Oh, but check back in like 5 years to see if I still support that statement.

Counting Chimneys

this guy's design is creative and yet so subtle.




Alex Ostrowski
http://www.alexostrowski.com/

Superstar

I got a C in anthro and spanish. I'm in a really good mood.

A Dramatist Plays Catastrophist

The creative juices are flowing. Plenty of ideas are surfacing. Getting really nervous about finishing school. I am highly awaiting Junius's next album. I can't concentrate in a class that's 2.5 hours of nonsense, so I'll look at failblog and feel foolish because I'm keeping myself from laughing.

Broken Patterns

Today had some irregularities in surroundings and happenings, but overall I enjoyed them, and I think I need to broaden the broad person I am a bit more. Things are not good and things are not yet bad, but for once in my life I am completely welcoming change. Drifting along I suppose.